The Rain...

The purple shades in the western skies
marks the end of a yet another day..

The sky has blackned, winds on the rise
holded from a string , just moments away from a cry

with a little drop there & a lightning glare
heaven has opened with shower & flare

Rain has started, No limits nor bounds
just like those thoughts in my crazy little mind

Hmmm...
If she was Not the one for me
Why am I feeling as if I have Lost everything in this Cold Lonely nite..

Landscape...

She is the blue sky

stretching far and wide

I am the earth which

just stares at that sight

Wind in the middle

and only the sigh of mine...

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The Crime...

I will never be able to forget you...

Hmmm..

You are an Angel..

But what I see from you now,

Is not what I saw in you in the years that has gone

Years which were full of Moments and of Laughter...

I just cant forget those times which I was

holding on to my phone as if that was my Life line

Just waiting for a message from You...

In my life where I have lost in Love, I thought

Atleast I Won a everlasting Friendship...

But Now it seems that I have Lost from both those ends..

My sweet Little Angel, Is Love an Unforgivable Crime ?

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The Stars...

I went to the bed, closed my eyes

and hoped to have a good nights sleep...

But Sleep my friend was a far far thing

far away than I could ever think...

So after awhile I got out of my bed

opened the window and I wished if I could fly...

Far far away and yet so bright, the Stars of the sky

smiled at me and asked the question WHY...?

Now she is a Star and is so bright but yet so far

Wings are the need to get that far...

:o(

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Nothing..

Is the Stars mean Nothing
to the great wide Sky...

Is Petals mean Nothing
to a beautiful Flower...

Is Colours mean Nothing
to a wonderfull Rainbow...

Do I mean Nothing
to You...

:(

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My Love...

The White Angel..
I may Call you My Friend

An Angel of beauty which
Came and Gone in a Hurry...

A Phantom of delight which
Made Every Moment of Life Unforgatable...

A White Rose bud of
Very Special kind...

The Special kind which
Blooms in the Heaven...

Although My Heart
Refuses to Accept...

My Mind guides me
Through the harsh Truth...

Angels Phantoms and
Special White Roses are
Not to be gained in this World...

So a Dream it may be..

A Dream which rided me through
The Heaven and Shown a Glimpse...

Only to Wake me up in Mid Air...

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Flash back...

Hmm..

The first rays of the sun are comming out through the clouds paving way to yet Another day. I know it is time for me to move on with my life. What has happend has happend & there would be no way to turn them around now. But then again the things will never be the same as they were used to be. Too many things were lost and won over that time, making her a essential part of my life even without my understanding of it.

People say "My dear fellow, Hopes should not be lost just because of some things that you have done or some things that you have not been able to perform in some part of your life along its long path...". But sometimes I wonder What will be driving us along that long path when we have lost all our Hopes... May be it is those same hopes hidden deep inside ourselves make us go along the path, the bonds that we have like family, friends & the fact that what ever happends we are all been just wheels in the big machine of world which we as individuals can do very little to make a change.

When I look back at my self what I see is that I have changed alot within this short period of one year. I dnt see the happy chap who was used to smile a lot and enjoy life in everyway whether it was good times or bad. Oh Yes, When I start to think of those I really cant imagine how I am doing things right now.

I have even become ignorant of my hair, the no of shaves I have & even the quality of the things that I wear. Though I also see that something has to be done, I just keep asking the question of What is that for? I mean after loosing her , I am feeling like if I have lost the true purpose of living a Good life (According to general perception)

But another question that keeps on haunting me day & night, is that "Is he the Right person for her?"...

Just how can somebody be certain that he would not dump her?...

Hmmm...

Four Years back...

Hmmm...

How would I start it...

Well, when you get to know of my story some of you might tell "Well wait a second man, this is a teenage Love" or "Now, that is called a crush my friend, I remember once......". Yes you may probably be right in some ways. But is it really that... Am I just an old fashioned day dreamer who belives in true love or was it all an illusination... That is something that I am also struggling to understand my friend.

Though I was not a teenager at the time (21 years) I first met her (2004), till then I have never felt like that for any other girl in my life. On saying that still my feelings for her are the same and I can not see how that could ever be changed. Anyway I would not say I felt in Love with her on my first sight. That would be a lie.But there were some other reasons for that too, for example I have never being the person who would stand up infront of a gathering and deliver a speech that would make all others clap their hands at the end. Though I knew I have the ability or so to say the facts and knowledge to do the same or even better as guys tell when I do so in small groups, Yes.... you would be knowing by now that Im a Shy person. The fact that I am so uneazy with lot of people was only valid for Men. When there is a presence of Women, Well then my friend the things will be more like the way you would be feeling when the semester exams are in a hour and you are staying just outside the exam hall. I hope that would make most of you understand that feeling.

What is so Special about her? That is a question that keeps on poping up by almost all of my close friends when ever this matter is surfaced and still I dont have a precise answer for that myself. I can only say that I felt its true & that though there will be many girls exceeding her in many ways, to me she was that Angel & the person that you wish to put your life at the edge of a cliff to protect. What ever happends She would always be the White Rose in my garden of life.......